Viens me trouver.

"I made up my mind that I would hold onto nothing, that I would expect nothing."
Writing once a day to keep insanity away.


You have found someone new
and you can love her.
You can love her with
all your heart.

You can love her,
but you cannot take
her to the same snow-covered
that you showed me
the day before Christmas Eve.
(Do you remember we kissed there?
You told me then that we would
move to Japan when we grew up.
I said that you were so
cultured and worldly.)

You can love her,
but you cannot press
your lips to her wrists
in the same way that
you did
Nor her forearms,
nor her neck.
(I haven’t been kissed since You.
I’ve been sleeping alone.)

You can love her,
but you cannot play her
our song
and make it hers.
Those notes were for us
and for our nights.
Those lyrics were
our bones and they’re still
a part of us.
(I still listen to our song sometimes
and get a little bit sad.
Do you?)

You can love her,
but you cannot idly
touch her hair
the way you used to
touch mine.
I was yours.
She will be yours, but
she will not feel the same.
Do not make her the same.
(I haven’t cut my hair since You.
I know you like it long.)

You can love her.
You can love her
with all your heart.
But you cannot love her
in the same way that
you loved me.
No, for
she is a different time—
a different You.

"The person who broke you can’t be the one to fix you. Remember that."
"If you can see a future without me and that doesn’t break your heart then we’re not doing what I thought we were doing here."
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I don’t know why it hurt.
Seeing you with her.
I don’t know why it burned.
I don’t know why I’m bleeding

I don’t know why I lie awake
at night,
wondering if she’s touched
all the places I’ve touched.
I don’t know why I keep
asking myself
what makes her different.
What makes her better.
Is she better?

I don’t know why you left.
I needed you.
I fucking needed you.

God, I don’t know why I still care.
I really wish that I didn’t.
I wish that I never did.

I wish that you did.
I really, really wish
that you did.


1h 48 min ago
Hey. I’m not really sure where I am right now because the ground is swirling around and around and around and I can’t really walk at all and I don’t know where you are or what you’re doing but I heard our song today. Remember when we sang it together that one time? Actually, I think it was two times. Three. A lot of times. Anyways I heard it and decided that I needed a drink. Call me.

1h 32 min ago
Why haven’t you called me back yet? It’s been so long. I’ve been waiting forever. Call me please. I’m just sitting, you know. Just sitting on the steps. Yeah. Call me.

1h 10 min ago
Hey, where are you? You still haven’t called me. Are you safe? I’m safe. I miss you. I’ve been missing you. A lot. You make me feel safe. Anyways, you should really call me. I’m feeling a little woozy. I really want to lay down in your lap. You can come over and hold my hand, okay? Call me.

1h 03 min ago
I was just thinking. Do you remember that time you held my hand under the blanket when we were watching a movie with all of our friends? You didn’t want our friends to see that you were holding my hand. Are you embarrassed of me? You should tell me how you really feel. I’ll wait for your call.

55 min ago
Hi, it’s me again. Are you still in love with her? You can tell me, you know. I won’t even cry. I haven’t been crying. If it sounds like I’m crying right now, I’m not. Just in case you were wondering. Do you wonder about me? I wonder about you. If you’re wondering about me right now, you can call me. Just call me please. I want to hear your voice.

40 min ago
What’s that thing about something something beer you’re in the clear, something something something? Do you remember it? I don’t remember it. I think I might throw up, though. I don’t remember how many shots I took but I didn’t chase them, I know that. You know, you were my chaser. You were—

36 min ago
Sorry, I had to hang up. I threw up. I’m such a piece of shit. Anyways, what was I saying? Oh yeah. You. You were my chaser. You were always the one that made everything better. You always masked the burn. You always took away the harshness. Like medicine. Like a painkiller or something. Like a drug. Are you gonna call me soon? I’m getting sleepy.

20 min ago
Hey. Are you still not over her? Are you with her right now? Why haven’t we spoken in weeks? I really miss you. You act like nothing ever happened between us and that’s not okay because something definitely did and we both know it. Everyone knows it. Just tell me if you want to be with me. I’ll be here by the phone if you wanna talk.

14 min ago
I’m probably gonna regret this when I’m sober, but I have a question for you. Do you love me? Do you feel anything at all for me? God, this hurts. I can’t feel my fingers. Babe, I can’t feel my fingers. Will you please come over here? Please? I need you. Come over right now, okay? I’m here.

10 min ago
I said before that I wasn’t crying but I am. I’m crying a lot right now because I need you; I just really really need someone because no one will hold me anymore and no one hears what’s going on in my head and no one understands and I just need someone to care. Just please, please come over and put your arms around me. Please. Or call me so I can hear your voice. Call me, please baby, please call me.

3 min ago
Are you there? Have you been getting my messages? Hello? I need you here. I need you to calm me down. Come now please. Please.

Baby. I have been waiting so, so, long for you to call me. For you to love me. And I need you to love me now. I can’t keep drinking love out of bottles like this. I can’t keep swallowing poison and pretending that it’s warmth. I can’t keep letting people leave without closing the stupid door behind them. I can’t keep giving myself away for free when everyone is looking for something so goddamn expensive. Are you looking for me? Please look for me. Please love me. I’ve loved you for so long. Can you please return the favor? Call me, okay? I’ll be here.



Words are lyrics from But I Do by Now, Now


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"Some days, I wonder
if you miss me.
Other days, I wonder
why I’m still wondering."